Need to keep myself busy

I have found that I just simply need to keep myself busy, even if that means that my house goes to being a wreck. I can't stand to stay inside my house for hours at a time when I know Alex isn't coming home. I am honestly fine during the day, but once night time hits, dinner is made and it's bed time for Colin I feel the need to talk to him. Unlike during the day where I could care less if I talked to him or not, simply from the fact that we rarely talk during the day while he's at work. 


I volunteered to some extent with the FRG. I can't sit here and not do anything with them and then be upset because I don't like the way things are going. I just requested that if there are small tasks that need to be accomplished, to send them my way. 


Started couponing last week. Got this week's paper and of course it had the wonderful P&G saver in it! I already found some great deals that will end up in overages, so I'm really excited about that. I just need to figure out how to do couponing and my normal grocery shopping with Colin and without Alex. Which normally wouldn't be a big task, but with my stomach muscles being the way that they are, my back and the fact that a 2 year old does not want to sit in a cart for 2 hours does not make grocery shopping any easier. So of course I"m trying to focus on getting things organized enough so that I can just whisk through the store.


Found out today that the dates that I had for Alex coming home were wrong. So hopefully he'll be coming home soon. At least either way, that's the way it will be. 


And I seriously need to finish this baby blanket for Harper so I can start on Alex's Christmas present! I'm so happy that Alex will be here this year for Colin's birthday, Christmas and nearly the whole winter! It will be a nice change for sure, especially because I can't do all the fun things with Colin. I'm so excited that Alex gets to do those thing with him this year... Sledding, making a snowman, snow angels, snow balls (which we've already done) and so much more!! We'll even get to decorate the tree together!!


Which, if everything works out, Colin's God-mother will be here when we decorate the tree!! She has some paid time off that she needs to take and we're hoping she can make it up here to see Colin and to see Alex before he deploys. It will be so nice to have someone visit us!! We haven't had anyone visit us in nearly two years and those were my parents. 


We always put the tree up on December 3rd. On December 3, 1999 my Granddad passed from a fight with cancer. Started in his lungs and spread. I came home from the 5th grade to my mom being home. Seeing as she was never home when I got home, I knew something was going on but I was figuring it was more like surprise. Needless to say, she met me outside in the driveway and told me there that my Granddad had passed away. To help take our minds off of it she decided to make some hot chocolate, put on some Manheim Steamroller and we started decorating the house for Christmas. Each year since we have decorated our Christmas tree on the same day. I took that tradition with me when Alex and I got married. Our first Christmas tree was put up 6 days after returning from the hospital with Colin. Last year I wasn't home because I was visiting my parents in Florida, but of course we put up the tree that day and this year Alex, Colin and I will get to put up our family tree again.


Oh the things to look forward to. :)