The dreaded conversation

That's right, we talked about reenlistment. It's really the last thing either of us really want to do, but it's ultimately what we need to do for our family. We need to get rid of our debt before we get out and build our credit.

While our conversation wasn't pleasant, I needed to talk about it. I needed to get it all off of my chest. While I talk about it every once in a while, I have never gone in such depth about my feeling about it.

I think being so far away from each other and talking about it really helped. It forced us to talk out every issue about reenlistment. But of course with how long our conversation lasted, we didn't get into details... He said that he was going to look into everything before he goes into work today.

I hate that I had to say it, but it's part of the reason why I don't go to sleep at night. I'm worried about what we're going to do when he does get out, the amount of debt we'll have, we won't be able to have another kid for 6 or 7 years, we will only have one car... yada yada yada.

Unfortunately, I know that this is not what Alex had in mind. He did know that I've been stressing out about it. I told him to think about it, but he said that there's not much to think about. So then I asked him to think about what's best for our family. I believe that he did agree that it would be better for our family. I just hope this doesn't come to bite us in the butt. Either way we could get bit in the butt.